Life will be imaged, but cannot be divided nor doubled. Any invasion of its
unity would be chaos. The soul is not twin-born but the only begotten, and
though revealing itself as child in time, child in appearance, is of a fatal and
universal power, admitting no co-life. Every day, every act betrays the
ill-concealed deity. We believe in ourselves as we do not believe in others. We
permit all things to ourselves, and that which we call sin in others is
experiment for us. It is an instance of our faith in ourselves that men never
speak of crime as lightly as they think; or every man thinks a latitude safe for
himself which is nowise to be indulged to another. The act looks very
differently on the inside and on the outside; in its quality and in its
consequences. Murder in the murderer is no such ruinous thought as poets and
romancers will have it; it does not unsettle him or fright him from his ordinary
notice of trifles; it is an act quite easy to be contemplated; but in its sequel
it turns out to be a horrible jangle and confounding of all relations.
Especially the crimes that spring from love seem right and fair from the actor's
point of view, but when acted are found destructive of society. No man at last
believes that he can be lost, nor that the crime in him is as black as in the
felon. Because the intellect qualifies in our own case the moral judgments. For
there is no crime to the intellect. That is antinomian or hypernomian, and
judges law as well as fact. "It is worse than a crime, it is a blunder," said
Napoleon, speaking the language of the intellect. To it, the world is a problem
in mathematics or the science of quantity, and it leaves out praise and blame
and all weak emotions. All stealing is comparative. If you come to absolutes,
pray who does not steal? Saints are sad, because they behold sin (even when they
speculate), from the point of view of the conscience, and not of the intellect;
a confusion of thought. Sin, seen from the thought, is a diminution, or less:
seen from the conscience or will, it is pravity or bad. The intellect names it
shade, absence of light, and no essence. The conscience must feel it as essence,
essential evil. This it is not; it has an objective existence, but no
subjective.
Thus inevitably does the universe wear our color, and every object fall
successively into the subject itself. The subject exists, the subject enlarges;
all things sooner or later fall into place. As I am, so I see; use what language
we will, we can never say anything but what we are; Hermes, Cadmus, Columbus,
Newton, Bonaparte, are the mind's ministers. Instead of feeling a poverty when
we encounter a great man, let us treat the new comer like a travelling geologist
who passes through our estate and shows us good slate, or limestone, or
anthracite, in our brush pasture. The partial action of each strong mind in one
direction is a telescope for the objects on which it is pointed. But every other
part of knowledge is to be pushed to the same extravagance, ere the soul attains
her due sphericity. Do you see that kitten chasing so prettily her own tail? If
you could look with her eyes you might see her surrounded with hundreds of
figures performing complex dramas, with tragic and comic issues, long
conversations, many characters, many ups and downs of fate,--and meantime it is
only puss and her tail. How long before our masquerade will end its noise of
tambourines, laughter, and shouting, and we shall find it was a solitary
performance? A subject and an object,--it takes so much to make the galvanic
circuit complete, but magnitude adds nothing. What imports it whether it is
Kepler and the sphere, Columbus and America, a reader and his book, or puss with
her tail?
It is true that all the muses and love and religion hate these developments, and
will find a way to punish the chemist who publishes in the parlor the secrets of
the laboratory. And we cannot say too little of our constitutional necessity of
seeing things under private aspects, or saturated with our humors. And yet is
the God the native of these bleak rocks. That need makes in morals the capital
virtue of self-trust. We must hold hard to this poverty, however scandalous, and
by more vigorous self-recoveries, after the sallies of action, possess our axis
more firmly. The life of truth is cold and so far mournful; but it is not the
slave of tears, contritions and perturbations. It does not attempt another's
work, nor adopt another's facts. It is a main lesson of wisdom to know your own
from another's. I have learned that I cannot dispose of other people's facts;
but I possess such a key to my own as persuades me, against all their denials,
that they also have a key to theirs. A sympathetic person is placed in the
dilemma of a swimmer among drowning men, who all catch at him, and if he give so
much as a leg or a finger they will drown him. They wish to be saved from the
mischiefs of their vices, but not from their vices. Charity would be wasted on
this poor waiting on the symptoms. A wise and hardy physician will say, Come out
of that, as the first condition of advice.
In this our talking America we are ruined by our good nature and listening on
all sides. This compliance takes away the power of being greatly useful. A man
should not be able to look other than directly and forthright. A preoccupied
attention is the only answer to the importunate frivolity of other people; an
attention, and to an aim which makes their wants frivolous. This is a divine
answer, and leaves no appeal and no hard thoughts. In Flaxman's drawing of the
Eumenides of Aeschylus, Orestes supplicates Apollo, whilst the Furies sleep on
the threshold. The face of the god expresses a shade of regret and compassion,
but is calm with the conviction of the irreconcilableness of the two spheres. He
is born into other politics, into the eternal and beautiful. The man at his feet
asks for his interest in turmoils of the earth, into which his nature cannot
enter. And the Eumenides there lying express pictorially this disparity. The god
is surcharged with his divine destiny.
Illusion, Temperament, Succession, Surface, Surprise, Reality,
Subjectiveness,--these are threads on the loom of time, these are the lords of
life. I dare not assume to give their order, but I name them as I find them in
my way. I know better than to claim any completeness for my picture. I am a
fragment, and this is a fragment of me. I can very confidently announce one or
another law, which throws itself into relief and form, but I am too young yet by
some ages to compile a code. I gossip for my hour concerning the eternal
politics. I have seen many fair pictures not in vain. A wonderful time I have
lived in. I am not the novice I was fourteen, nor yet seven years ago. Let who
will ask Where is the fruit? I find a private fruit sufficient. This is a
fruit,--that I should not ask for a rash effect from meditations, counsels and
the hiving of truths. I should feel it pitiful to demand a result on this town
and county, an overt effect on the instant month and year. The effect is deep
and secular as the cause. It works on periods in which mortal lifetime is lost.
All I know is reception; I am and I have: but I do not get, and when I have
fancied I had gotten anything, I found I did not. I worship with wonder the
great Fortune. My reception has been so large, that I am not annoyed by
receiving this or that superabundantly. I say to the Genius, if he will pardon
the proverb, In for a mill, in for a million. When I receive a new gift, I do
not macerate my body to make the account square, for if I should die I could not
make the account square. The benefit overran the merit the first day, and has
overrun the merit ever since. The merit itself, so-called, I reckon part of the
receiving.
Also that hankering after an overt or practical effect seems to me an apostasy.
In good earnest I am willing to spare this most unnecessary deal of doing. Life
wears to me a visionary face. Hardest roughest action is visionary also. It is
but a choice between soft and turbulent dreams. People disparage knowing and the
intellectual life, and urge doing. I am very content with knowing, if only I
could know. That is an august entertainment, and would suffice me a great while.
To know a little would be worth the expense of this world. I hear always the law
of Adrastia, "that every soul which had acquired any truth, should be safe from
harm until another period."
I know that the world I converse with in the city and in the farms, is not the
world I think. I observe that difference, and shall observe it. One day I shall
know the value and law of this discrepance. But I have not found that much was
gained by manipular attempts to realize the world of thought. Many eager persons
successively make an experiment in this way, and make themselves ridiculous.
They acquire democratic manners, they foam at the mouth, they hate and deny.
Worse, I observe that in the history of mankind there is never a solitary
example of success,--taking their own tests of success. I say this polemically,
or in reply to the inquiry, Why not realize your world? But far be from me the
despair which prejudges the law by a paltry empiricism;--since there never was a
right endeavor but it succeeded. Patience and patience, we shall win at the
last. We must be very suspicious of the deceptions of the element of time. It
takes a good deal of time to eat or to sleep, or to earn a hundred dollars, and
a very little time to entertain a hope and an insight which becomes the light of
our life. We dress our garden, eat our dinners, discuss the household with our
wives, and these things make no impression, are forgotten next week; but, in the
solitude to which every man is always returning, he has a sanity and revelations
which in his passage into new worlds he will carry with him. Never mind the
ridicule, never mind the defeat; up again, old heart!--it seems to say,--there
is victory yet for all justice; and the true romance which the world exists to
realize will be the transformation of genius into practical power.
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