There is no virtue which is final; all are initial. The virtues of society are
vices of the saint. The terror of reform is the discovery that we must cast away
our virtues, or what we have always esteemed such, into the same pit that has
consumed our grosser vices:--
"Forgive his crimes, forgive his virtues too,
Those smaller faults, half converts to the right."
It is the highest power of divine moments that they abolish our contritions
also. I accuse myself of sloth and unprofitableness day by day; but when these
waves of God flow into me I no longer reckon lost time. I no longer poorly
compute my possible achievement by what remains to me of the month or the year;
for these moments confer a sort of omnipresence and omnipotence which asks
nothing of duration, but sees that the energy of the mind is commensurate with
the work to be done, without time.
And thus, O circular philosopher, I hear some reader exclaim, you have arrived
at a fine Pyrrhonism, at an equivalence and indifferency of all actions, and
would fain teach us that if we are true, forsooth, our crimes may be lively
stones out of which we shall construct the temple of the true God!
I am not careful to justify myself. I own I am gladdened by seeing the
predominance of the saccharine principle throughout vegetable nature, and not
less by beholding in morals that unrestrained inundation of the principle of
good into every chink and hole that selfishness has left open, yea into
selfishness and sin itself; so that no evil is pure, nor hell itself without its
extreme satisfactions. But lest I should mislead any when I have my own head and
obey my whims, let me remind the reader that I am only an experimenter. Do not
set the least value on what I do, or the least discredit on what I do not, as if
I pretended to settle any thing as true or false. I unsettle all things. No
facts are to me sacred; none are profane; I simply experiment, an endless seeker
with no Past at my back.
Yet this incessant movement and progression which all things partake could never
become sensible to us but by contrast to some principle of fixture or stability
in the soul. Whilst the eternal generation of circles proceeds, the eternal
generator abides. That central life is somewhat superior to creation, superior
to knowledge and thought, and contains all its circles. For ever it labors to
create a life and thought as Large and excellent as itself, but in vain, for
that which is made instructs how to make a better.
Thus there is no sleep, no pause, no preservation, but all things renew,
germinate and spring. Why should we import rags and relics into the new hour?
Nature abhors the old, and old age seems the only disease; all others run into
this one. We call it by many names,--fever, intemperance, insanity, stupidity
and crime; they are all forms of old age; they are rest, conservatism,
appropriation, inertia; not newness, not the way onward. We grizzle every day. I
see no need of it. Whilst we converse with what is above us, we do not grow old,
but grow young. Infancy, youth, receptive, aspiring, with religious eye looking
upward, counts itself nothing and abandons itself to the instruction flowing
from all sides. But the man and woman of seventy assume to know all, they have
outlived their hope, they renounce aspiration, accept the actual for the
necessary and talk down to the young. Let them, then, become organs of the Holy
Ghost; let them be lovers; let them behold truth; and their eyes are uplifted,
their wrinkles smoothed, they are perfumed again with hope and power. This old
age ought not to creep on a human mind. In nature every moment is new; the past
is always swallowed and forgotten; the coming only is sacred. Nothing is secure
but life, transition, the energizing spirit. No love can be bound by oath or
covenant to secure it against a higher love. No truth so sublime but it may be
trivial to-morrow in the light of new thoughts. People wish to be settled; only
as far as they are unsettled is there any hope for them.
Life is a series of surprises. We do not guess to-day the mood, the pleasure,
the power of to-morrow, when we are building up our being. Of lower states, of
acts of routine and sense, we can tell somewhat; but the masterpieces of God,
the total growths and universal movements of the soul, he hideth; they are
incalculable. I can know that truth is divine and helpful; but how it shall help
me I can have no guess, for so to be is the sole inlet of so to know. The new
position of the advancing man has all the powers of the old, yet has them all
new. It carries in its bosom all the energies of the past, yet is itself an
exhalation of the morning. I cast away in this new moment all my once hoarded
knowledge, as vacant and vain. Now, for the first time seem I to know any thing
rightly. The simplest words,--we do not know what they mean except when we love
and aspire.
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